The Silence

As many of you know, about two weeks ago, we, our whole family, came down to Oregon to celebrate my grandfather's 80th birthday. We saw a lot of people and got to stay at a few different places. All in all, we had a marvelous time!

Last Wednesday, July 29th, we headed back for home. It was also Kolbein's first birthday! We really didn't do too much for his first birthday, except a few people were nice enough to give him a couple presents to open. (Thank you!!) Then we decided to have some fun and put a candle in a slice of leftover cake from Grandpa's birthday. He really didn't know what to think of it at first and then... well, let's just say that he LOVED it. He almost put his whole face in it. lol

At home, I quickly went back to work and tried to spend as much time as I could with Jacob and the boys since they were turning right back around Saturday morning and heading for Oregon again. This time without me.

Jacob's dad, Richard, went in for open heart surgery the following Monday morning on the third. It was successful, and he just got out of the hospital yesterday. Just in time for his own birthday today! Happy birthday, Pops! So, Jacob and all three boys are down there helping out with his recovery etc...

Meanwhile, for the first time in our marriage, I've been by myself. Completely. Oh, I've enjoyed the average afternoon off, but not for this amount of time. It's been very weird. Of course I cried a little when I saw them drive off with there little manly-boy voices yelling, "See you later, Mom!" and "We'll miss you!" (OK, I cried a lot.) But then I focused on the novelty of it all. I could do what I wanted, when I wanted for the most part.

I put in a lot of hours at work the first few days to try to make up for a little of the time when I was gone. I also re-poisoned the perimeter of our house for carpenter ants. (I was waking up and stepping on them in the middle of the night, fishing them out of my coffee, having them drop into my hair AND waking up in the middle of the night to them crawling on me more than once! In fact, one even bit me!! The nerve!!) I caught up on all my recordings of TLC's What Not to Wear, read a book all the way through, embroidered a little, played some computer games and painted my toenails blue. I even took my cousin's dog, Cupcake, for a walk.

By Wednesday it was time to catch up on some chores. I think that's when it really hit me that they were gone. Any mother knows how - what's the right word? - "interesting" it is to try to get everyday chores done with a houseful of little children. To accomplish the simplest of tasks usually requires creative, premeditated planning and organization on our part. Get them distracted or busy with certain tasks if they're old enough, or figure out a way to contain them if they're little babies... without crying.

I think I got ALL my chores done in two hours flat. I couldn't believe it. I folded laundry and it stayed folded. I put things away in the cupboards, and they stayed where I put them. (Kolbein likes to take things out of the cupboards for fun.) I cleaned up the toys and they stayed in the toy box. I cleaned Jared and Kristopher's room (at Jared's request), and it stayed clean. It's still clean. I finished their laundry and there's still not a single dirty sock in the basket yet days later.

I have slept all the way through the night for days on end. I wake up and actually eat breakfast at breakfast time. Usually by the time I feed them and clean them up and get them going for the day, it's almost lunch before I remember to eat. There are no toys to clean out of the tub. No sippee cups to wash or baby bottles to sterilize. No diapers to change and the lid on the toilet stays down.

So, I go to work, come home, and talk to them on the phone as much as I can. I look at photos of the years past and realize how fast they're growing. Yes, I feel sentimental tonight, but for the last few years, they've been the first thing I wake up to in the morning, and I've been able to kiss them goodnight every night since they were born. I've clocked my days by them. I feel as if I'm missing the sun and the moon. I can't wait till they come back!!

PS
How much I miss Jacob too would take another page!